I haven’t really been in the mood to write this past week. Work has just been draining and I’ve kind of been in a funk. I feel like I am on the edge of a new beginning, but I can’t quite see what it looks like just yet. Let me tell you, it is a completely humbling and frustrating feeling all at once. I read this post and wanted to cry. Mostly because I can completely relate. I will share more of my experiences and journey soon, but standing up for myself, my life, and my dreams is still something I struggle with. I knew at 18, after I graduated from high school, that I could not be in school anymore. It was sucking the life out of me. I didn’t listen though. I only listened to the voices of fear around me, instead of the nagging voice inside me that was begging for me to listen. I want to begin a series on here, writing about my journey the past four years, as well as the dreams I have for the future. I am really writing it for my own healing and understanding, but I want to share it so others can relate and share their experiences too. That’s how we learn, and that’s what life is about anyway, right? I will leave you with something I wrote a couple of months ago in a moment of inspiration.
“Your path will look different from those around you. You might take your own way, go against the grain, and disappoint people in the process.
Expect it.
It will feel scary, impossible, and completely right. Just keep moving forward, no matter what.
But always remember one thing- Don’t ever feel bad about being who you are. Don’t ever compare your life to anyone else’s. You came here for your own purpose, your own path.
Just because it may not look like theirs, doesn’t mean it’s wrong- it just means it’s yours.
You have more talent, intelligence, and passion than you recognize.
The only way to live your life is to look forward; to look up at the stars and breathe in the night air, knowing that those stars are shining for you.
They follow you everywhere you go, beckoning you to shine.”
I know how you feel. I’ve worked two days so far, and I already feel like my spirit’s been drained from me. It’s terrible. I hope we both figure out what we’re supposed to be doing.
I heard about your job, sorry it’s not going so well. We WILL figure it out. I guess we are supposed to be learning from these experiences.
I guess!
I love your honesty. I have days like this where I feel like I’ve let myself down in terms of where I am in my life. I try to remember that it’s okay to not have your life complete by a certain age. It’s tough though!
It is tough! I try to remember that too. It makes life more exciting anyway when we don’t have everything figured out! (Even though it isn’t always easy for me to see that.)
Aww Cousin! I totally feel you. I love your quote “But always remember one thing- Don’t ever feel bad about being who you are. Don’t ever compare your life to anyone else’s. You came here for your own purpose, your own path.” and “You have more talent, intelligence, and passion than you recognize.” Just remember that you do too!!!! And I want to see your new hair : )
Thanks cousin! You do too!!! I am about to post an awkward self-photo of my hair, just for you:)
YAY I can’t wait to see it! Maybe I’ll post a totally awkward selfie of myself too. Just for you : )
Yes, please do:)