I have been officially been blogging for a year! There were times when I have considered stopping, but overall I love having this outlet. For me, this blog is really just a space to share memories, thoughts, and ideas. I have so many ideas for this little space. I haven’t quite given it the time or attention I intended, but I hope to in the next year.
I want to share something I’ve been thinking about this weekend. I can’t quite think of an eloquent way, so I’m just going to babble for a bit.
I’m in a place of in between right now. Maybe this is just how the twenties of life feel, but I have a lot of unanswered questions, changes, and general uncertainty. I feel like I am always in a state of wanting to be in the next phase of my life. Lately my in-between is wanting to get engaged and married. Since I know it is coming sooner rather than later, I anticipate it. Will it happen this weekend? Tonight? I have spent a lot of time anticipating, instead of living in the present moment. Here I am with this blessed life, and instead of screaming THANK YOU!, I am asking for more.
I thought of this on Saturday night. I cooked dinner for John and I. He played Bob Dylan, and we sat outside to eat on a perfect September night. This exact scene was something I used to imagine, something I used to pray for, and here it was. A literal answered prayer, a dream come true. I vowed in that moment of realization to stop; To stop the thoughts of the future, of constant far off dreams or wishes, and be so grateful for everything right now. I felt humbled and a little ashamed of how I’ve been viewing my life; of how I’ve spent so much time complaining and so little time saying thank you.
So today I am viewing life differently. I am saying, thank you for this well paying job; a job where I literally get to work side by side my love. Thank you for the breeze outside my window, the clothes in my closet, and the food I get to pack for lunch. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You…
And thank you for reading my blog this past year
What is one thing that you are thankful for today?