I feel like for the past year I’ve been on auto-pilot. Working, sleeping, resting on the weekends to gear up for another week ahead. I have been feeling stressed lately, so on Friday I spent the whole day doing things I love.
For starters I woke up in the morning. I didn’t feel well on Thursday, so I went to bed at 9:00 pm and watched The Office until I feel asleep. I woke up and felt so much better! I made myself a real breakfast for the first time in months. I eased into the day sipping my coffee, listening to music, and making a grocery list. I read, did a little shopping, and sketched for a bit. The best moment of the day was when I opened my window wide and napped for a couple of hours with the sun streaming in on me. It was perfect.
I forgot what it feels like to be on a normal schedule, as in not working into the wee hours of the morning. I forgot what it feels like to see the sunshine for more than a hour or two a day. I realized that it doesn’t take much for me to be happy.
I learned this weekend that it’s okay to not be okay or happy with where I am in life (for me this is mostly my job/career). It’s okay to say, I want more. I deserve more. What is not okay is to complain, cry, be jealous of others, if I am not willing to do what it takes to create the life of my dreams.
Napping in the sunshine didn’t take away all my problems, or instantly bring what I want into my life, but I gained perspective. Perspective that it is up to me to work for what I want. To listen to my dreams and to catch them. This weekend was one small step towards my dream life.
(Believe, from Kelly Rae Roberts. She has been such an inspiration to me. I am taking her E-course in September. Another small step!)